Peace for my Heart, Hope for my Soul

Can I be honest with y'all for a minute?  Yes?  Well thanks.

This past week has been tough for me.  We still don't have our completed home-study paperwork in hand, and I've been feeling very frustrated.  Every time someone asks me what's new, I have nothing to say.  It makes me sad.  We started this process in January, and there literally isn't a thing we can do to continue moving forward until we have this document.  The waiting is so hard.  You just feel helpless and want nothing more than to just go get your son and bring him home.  That being said, we know our agencies have to review it for any mistakes, and while the time that takes stinks, we hope this will prevent delays later.  We should get the paperwork back no later than early next week.  Fingers double crossed.

As I was close to tears talking to a friend over the weekend, she said something that I have to believe is true.  She said that God must have a special, specific little boy that is our son, and this waiting and slow paperwork process is somehow making the timing just right.

Even though that doesn't make the waiting any easier, it does bring some peace to my anxious heart and hope to my soul.  A blog post I read a while back summarizes this perfectly -

We have to realize that it's these very moments that make the payoff we're waiting for worth it.  It's these scenes that build character.  It's the scenes that we all want to skip that produce the endings we all want to experience.  Nothing of great worth comes at a low cost.  And it's the scenes that you'd prefer to skip that God is using to orchestrate an ending you wouldn't want to miss.  - Steven Furtick

Little man, I know you will be every bit worth this journey to bring you home and more.  I cannot wait to experience this ending God has for our family - I wouldn't miss it for the world.